Never give up

Never give up; light awaits us at the end of the route

There’s time when we feel so weak, so hopeless and useless.. The very moment when we feel only tears are the best things to have.. I know, we got problems, we face different kind of things in life.. But, just never give up.. No matter how hard it is, life is meant to be like that.. Life is nothing more than a battleground for us to endure, we fight for our lives, everyday every night.. Hope is there whenever you need it, but just most the times, we tend to forget about it… You can’t give up with your life just like that, you should embrace it instead… If you feel so hard, if you feel useless or hopeless in any way you may put it, just bear this in mind, keep going! keep going! don’t ever turn back… Even the route is so tough, so rigid and so unforgivable, keep moving on, cause belive me, light awaits you at the end of the route.. Don’t give up with your dreams, cause you might eventually realise, you share the same dreams with someone out there, someone who’s fighting their way thru delusion and disappointments, just to get what we have now.. Do your very best to fulfill every dreams you ever hope for, safe in the knowledge that once you achieved it, you also have fulfilled dreams of the unfortunates.. Just never give up, light always there at the end of route.. You just have believe in it.. One day you’ll find the way and you’ll feel ”You have gotten thru everything, and eventually you are standing there so proud of yourself being able to stand over your fulfilled dreams“.

The Dawn of Syawal

Happy Aidilfitri to all my brothers and sisters across the globe

To all Muslims around the world, no matter who you are; where you live we are all the same – united under the same kalimah of Laillahaillallah… During this holy month of Ramadhan, with Syawal around the corner, I would like to wish all of you happy embracing the last pieces of Ramadhan and Happy Aidilfitri… May Allah grant upon us His everlasting mercy and gracious love during the dawn of Syawal and with that I would like to wish all of you happiness and togetherness throughout Aidilfitri, celebrate it together with the sense of humility and unity.. Together we dictate our faith and love to Allah and His messenger; Muhammad PBUH.. Happy Aidilfitri once again to all my beloved brothers and sisters across the globe… Assalamualaikum

This is Malaysia, I live here and I’m proud of it

Malaysia is always be nation of my heart

In the conjunction of our National Day that will be celebrated very soon, there’s something that I would like to share with all the readers.

I do know my country isn’t there yet, to be called a modernised and fully developed country like Japan or Germany, but we are striving to achieve it.

I do know my country isn’t  that beautiful to be compared to Australia or Russia, but I always embrace the beauty that my country has

Yes, I do always consent that we got a long way to go, to fully unite the people who live in it.

But there’s thing that makes me so proud and grateful to be a Malaysian

It’s not about the places, or even about cultures or whatsoever

It’s about the people I’ve met

The people who I spend my life with

The journey that I take

The laughter that I have

The smiles that captured my heart

The hands that hold me until the end

This is the country where I learn

Who am I;

What I have to do in this life..

What is life really meant to me;

My very purpose of being alive…

I’ve walked this far with this little gut that I bring along

I wont be going this far without the privilege that is given to me by this humble nation

I don’t care how rich the Americans are

I don’t care how privilege being a Japanese

I don’t care how lavish living in the Europe

I don’t care about what other countries have

Cause in here, in this tiny humble land of Malaysia

I got everything that I ever wanted

People who care, Love that I embrace and Memories that captured my heart

This is Malaysia, a country like no others

Forever and always be the nation of my heart

Happy National Day to all Malaysians!

The 99 Divine Names of Allah; the one and only god worth of worship

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious and the most Merciful

1. Allah He who has the Godhood which is the power to create the entities. 

2. Ar-Rahmaan The Compassionate, The Beneficent, The One who has plenty of mercy for the believers and the blasphemers in this world and especially for the believers in the hereafter. 

3. Ar-Raheem The Merciful, The One who has plenty of mercy for the believers. 

4. Al-Malik The King, The Sovereign Lord, The One with the complete Dominion, the One Whose Dominion is clear from imperfection. 

5. Al-Quddoos The Holy, The One who is pure from any imperfection and clear from children and adversaries. 

6. As-Salaam The Source of Peace, The One who is free from every imperfection. 

7. Al-Mu’min Guardian of Faith, The One who witnessed for Himself that no one is God but Him. And He witnessed for His believers that they are truthful in their belief that no one is God but Him. 

8. Al-Muhaimin The Protector, The One who witnesses the saying and deeds of His creatures. 

9. Al-A’zeez The Mighty, The Strong, The Defeater who is not defeated. 

10. Al-Jabbaar The Compeller, The One that nothing happens in His Dominion except that which He willed. 

11. Al-Mutakabbir The Majestic, The One who is clear from the attributes of the creatures and from resembling them. 

12. Al-Khaaliq The Creator, The One who brings everything from non-existence to existence. 

13. Al-Bari’ The Evolver, The Maker, The Creator who has the Power to turn the entities. 

14. Al-Musawwir The Fashioner, The One who forms His creatures in different pictures. 

15. Al-Ghaffaar The Great Forgiver, The Forgiver, The One who forgives the sins of His slaves time and time again. 

16. Al-Qahhaar The Subduer, The Dominant, The One who has the perfect Power and is not unable over anything. 

17. Al-Wahhaab The Bestower, The One who is Generous in giving plenty without any return. He is everything that benefits whether Halal or Haram. 

18. Al-Razzaaq The Sustainer, The Provider. 

19. Al-Fattaah The Opener, The Reliever, The Judge, The One who opens for His slaves the closed worldy and religious matters. 

20. Al-A’leem The All-knowing, The Knowledgeable; The One nothing is absent from His knowledge. 

21. Al-Qaabid The Constricter, The Retainer, The Withholder, The One who constricts the sustenance by His wisdomand expands and widens it with His Generosity and Mercy. 

22. Al-Baasit The Expander, The Englarger, The One who constricts the sustenance by His wisdomand expands and widens it with His Generosity and Mercy. 

23. Al-Khaafid The Abaser, The One who lowers whoever He willed by His Destruction and raises whoever He willed by His Endowment. 

24. Ar-Raafi’ The Exalter, The Elevator, The One who lowers whoever He willed by His Destruction and raises whoever He willed by His Endowment. 

25. Al-Mu’iz The Honorer, He gives esteem to whoever He willed, hence there is no one to degrade Him; And He degrades whoever He willed, hence there is no one to give Him esteem. 

26. Al-Muthil The Dishonorer, The Humiliator, He gives esteem to whoever He willed, hence there is no one to degrade Him; And He degrades whoever He willed, hence there is no one to give Him esteem. 

27. As-Samee’ The All-Hearing, The Hearer, The One who Hears all things that are heard by His Eternal Hearing without an ear, instrument or organ. 

28. Al-Baseer The All-Seeing, The One who Sees all things that are seen by His Eternal Seeing without a pupil or any other instrument. 

29. Al-Hakam The Judge, He is the Ruler and His judgment is His Word. 

30. Al-A’dl The Just, The One who is entitled to do what He does. 

31. Al-Lateef The Subtle One, The Gracious, The One who is kind to His slaves and endows upon them. 

32. Al-Khabeer The Aware, The One who knows the truth of things. 

33. Al-Haleem The Forebearing, The Clement, The One who delays the punishment for those who deserve it and then He might forgive them. 

34. Al-A’zeem The Great One, The Mighty, The One deserving the attributes of Exaltment, Glory, Extolement,and Purity from all imperfection. 

35. Al-Ghafoor The All-Forgiving, The Forgiving, The One who forgives a lot. 

36. Ash-Shakoor The Grateful, The Appreciative, The One who gives a lot of reward for a little obedience.  

37. Al-A’liyy The Most High, The Sublime, The One who is clear from the attributes of the creatures. 

38. Al-Kabeer The Most Great, The Great, The One who is greater than everything in status. 

39. Al-Hafeez The Preserver, The Protector, The One who protects whatever and whoever He willed to protect. 

40. Al-Muqeet The Maintainer, The Guardian, The Feeder, The Sustainer, The One who has the Power. 

41. Al-Haseeb The Reckoner, The One who gives the satisfaction. 

42. Aj-Jaleel The Sublime One, The Beneficent, The One who is attributed with greatness of Power and Glory of status. 

43. Al-Kareem The Generous One, The Bountiful, The Gracious, The One who is attributed with greatness of Power and Glory of status. 

44. Ar-Raqeeb The Watcher, The Watchful, The One that nothing is absent from Him. 

45. Al-Mujeeb The Responsive, The Hearkener, The One who answers the one in need if he asks Him and rescues the yearner if he calls upon Him. 

46. Al-Wasi’  The Vast, The All-Embracing, The Knowledgeable. 

47. Al-Hakeem The Wise, The Judge of Judges, The One who is correct in His doings. 

48. Al-Wadood The Loving, The One who loves His believing slaves and His believing slaves love Him. His love to His slaves is His Will to be merciful to them and praise them 

49. Al-Majeed The Most Glorious One, The Glorious, The One who is with perfect Power, High Status, Compassion, Generosity and Kindness. 

50. Al-Bai’th The Reserrector, The Raiser (from death), The One who resurrects His slaves after death for reward and/or punishment. 

51. Ash-Shaheed The Witness, The One who nothing is absent from Him. 

52. Al-Haqq The Truth, The True, The One who truly exists. 

53. Al-Wakeel The Trustee, The One who gives the satisfaction and is relied upon. 

54. Al-Qawiyy The Most Strong, The Strong, The One with the complete Power. 

55. Al-Mateen The Firm One, The One with extreme Power which is un-interrupted and He does not get tired. 

56. Al-Waliyy The Protecting Friend, The Supporter. 

57. Al-Hameed The Praiseworthy, The praised One who deserves to be praised. 

58. Al-Muhsee The Counter, The Reckoner, The One who the count of things are known to him. 

59. Al-Mubdi’ The Originator, The One who started the human being. That is, He created him. 

60. Al-Mu’eed The Reproducer, The One who brings back the creatures after death. 

61. Al-Muhyi The Restorer, The Giver of Life, The One who took out a living human from semen that does not have a soul. He gives life by giving the souls back to the worn out bodies on the resurrection day and He makes the hearts alive by the light of knowledge. 

62. Al-Mumeet The Creator of Death, The Destroyer, The One who renders the living dead. 

63. Al-Hayy The Alive, The One attributed with a life that is unlike our life and is not that of a combination of soul, flesh or blood. 

64. Al-Qayyoom The Self-Subsisting, The One who remains and does not end. 

65. Al-Waajid The Perceiver, The Finder, The Rich who is never poor. 

66. Al-Waahid The Unique, The One without a partner. 

67. Al-Ahad The One. 

68. As-Samad The Eternal, The Independent, The Master who is relied upon in matters and reverted to in ones needs. 

69. Al-Qaadir The Able, The Capable, The One attributed with Power. 

70. Al-Muqtadir The Powerful, The Dominant, The One with the perfect Power that nothing is withheld from Him. 

71. Al-Muqaddim The Expediter, The Promoter, The One who puts things in their right places. He makes ahead what He wills and delays what He wills. 

72. Al-Mu’akh-khir The Delayer, the Retarder, The One who puts things in their right places. He makes ahead what He wills and delays what He wills. 

73. Al-’Awwal The First, The One whose Existence is without a beginning. 

74. Al-’Akhir The Last, The One whose Existence is without an end. 

75. Az-Zaahir The Manifest, The One that nothing is above Him and nothing is underneath Him, hence He exists without a place. He, The Exalted, His Existence is obvious by proofs and He is clear from the delusions of attributes of bodies. 

76. Al-Baatin The Hidden, The One that nothing is above Him and nothing is underneath Him, hence He exists without a place. He, The Exalted, His Existence is obvious by proofs and He is clear from the delusions of attributes of bodies. 

77. Al-Walee The Governor, The One who owns things and manages them. 

78. Al-Mutaa’li The Most Exalted, The High Exalted, The One who is clear from the attributes of the creation. 

79. Al-Barr The Source of All Goodness, The Righteous, The One who is kind to His creatures, who covered them with His sustenance and specified whoever He willed among them by His support, protection, and special mercy. 

80. At-Tawwaab The Acceptor of Repentance, The Relenting, The One who grants repentance to whoever He willed among His creatures and accepts his repentance. 

81. Al-Muntaqim The Avenger, The One who victoriously prevails over His enemies and punishes them for their sins. It may mean the One who destroys them. 

82. Al-A’fuww The Pardoner, The Forgiver, The One with wide forgiveness. 

83. Ar-Ra’uf The Compassionate, The One with extreme Mercy. The Mercy of Allah is His will to endow upon whoever He willed among His creatures. 

84. Malik Al-Mulk The Eternal Owner of Sovereignty, The One who controls the Dominion and gives dominion to whoever He willed. 

85. Thul-Jalali wal-Ikram The Lord of Majesty and Bounty, The One who deserves to be Exalted and not denied. 

86. Al-Muqsit The Equitable, The One who is Just in His judgment. 

87. Aj-Jaami’ The Gatherer, The One who gathers the creatures on a day that there is no doubt about, that is the Day of Judgement. 

88. Al-Ghaniyy The Self-Sufficient, The One who does not need the creation. 

89. Al-Mughni The Enricher, The One who satisfies the necessities of the creatures. 

90. Al-Maani^ The Preventer, The Withholder. 

91. Ad-Daarr The Distresser, The One who makes harm reach to whoever He willed and benefit to whoever He willed. 

92. An-Nafi^ The Propitious, The One who makes harm reach to whoever He willed and benefit to whoever He willed. 

93. An-Noor The Light, The One who guides. 

94. Al-Haadi The Guide, The One whom with His Guidance His believers were guided, and with His Guidance the living beings have been guided to what is beneficial for them and protected from what is harmful to them. 

95. Al-Badi’ The Incomparable, The One who created the creation and formed it without any preceding example. 

96. Al-Baaqi The Everlasting, The One that the state of non-existence is impossible for Him. 

97. Al-Waarith The Supreme Inheritor, The Heir, The One whose Existence remains. 

98. Ar-Rasheed The Guide to the Right Path, The One who guides. 

99. As-Saboor The Patient, The One who does not quickly punish the sinners. “…There is nothing whatever like unto Him, and He is the One that hears and sees (all things).

Why it has to be “Oncologist”?

You are thinking of doing your specialist after this? Yes Dr, I would like to do so, obviously the route is still farther ahead, but I do have in mind to do specialisation after this MBBS. In what field Zaid? Oncologist Dr. Owh, it is hard, honestly it is one of the hardest fields in medicine. So, would you like to tell me why it has to be oncologist?

Do you know that how many cancer patients are able to survive in their battle against this cruel disease? Do you know how much it suffers the patient; even the strongest man standing will fall on his knees by cancer in a split of a second? Do you know how much this disease has claimed million lives and the number is still counting until today? Do you ever realise that there is no absolute therapy to cure this disease? Have you ever ask yourself how does people with cancer went thru their days with hope and courage? Have you ever put yourself in their shoes, trying to feel and live like they live every day and night? We face death even before we see it. We know that the patient would die even how hard you have tried and how hard the patient fight to win over the battle. So why you choose this path?

Cause we can’t lose hope. We can’t never lose hope, even the world is torn apart, we can’t lose hope. If the cancer patient can still standing fighting for their lives every day, why should we ever walked away? It is not only about treating or healing the cancer, but it is about hope that we put in it. It is not about whether we can or we cannot, but it is about how we do it, how we give chance for them to believe there’s still life despite of the cruelty that is eating them day and night.  Dr, I do strongly believe in a second chance. And I do also believe miracles are there for us to grab. To make them believe that life is a journey, regardless long or short, moments that we embraced are matter the most.

We believe in every hope that we have

 Even if we have lost the battle, tears that will shed are not of guilty, but of love.

A night that I won’t forget

“Do you still mad at me?”
“Why should I mad at you mom? You never upset me, I went through lots of things, and I made it through at the end, it wont be happening without your constant support”.
“Do you mad at me stopping you from continuing your study in Japan?”
“Mom, it has already been a year since that, I never think about it, you are my Mom, you have the right to choose for me. I know you need me. Even though going to Japan was everything to me back then, when I sit back and think, everything comes with reason isn’t it? I wont be mad just because of this mom. I’m better than that”
“I’m proud to have you as my son. I just want to be with you, see you growing up, see you achieving your dreams, see you becoming a good man. I don’t want to lose you”
“You are not losing me mom, never at any moment you are going to lose me, cause I always be here for you. You are my everything, don’t you know that? Don’t think about this anymore k mom”
The boy did everything that he could in studying. He went through his third semester in diploma with lots of passion in it, because he knows; he wanted to be a doctor, just like what his mom dreams of. The night before final, he dropped his mom a call “Mom, tomorrow will be my first day of examination, I’m quite nervous. Tomorrow will be English paper”
“You don’t have to be nervous, I know my son very well, he worked hard. I miss you son”
“Mom, are you crying? I can hear you are crying? Mom tell me, what happened? Please mom, tell me”
“Its nothing, I just miss you. Do your best for tomorrow, focus on your study, that’s the only way you can change your life”
“I will mom, I will keep reminding myself that”
It was quite weird that night, the sky was raining heavily, like it was trying to tell him something would happen. The next morning, right after he performed his prayer, he got a call, from his sister “mom got a __________, she has been diagnosed since last week, get ready to go back home if anything happens” he didn’t reply anything, he didn’t talk, only tears went down the cheek and he immediately disconnected the call. “She has been keeping this for a week?” whispered him. He immediately called his best friends, and told them what happened. It was just an hour before the final started. His best friends persuaded him to take the paper and stop worrying about it for a while. He went to sit for the exam even though tears were shedding nonstop along the way. Since that day, each night he prays to God

“If it’s true, you created me, to face these challenges in life.. If it is true, You will never test Your servant if You know he couldn’t make it through, I’m begging for Your help, show me the way, make it easy for me to see the route You have destined for me to walk in. Light my way Allah, I am too hurt now, I’m hurt not because the tests You have given me, but I am too hurt knowing I’m going to face these tests alone. Show me Your mercy and love, show me that You are with me to show me the way, send me somebody for me to talk with, someone to listen to me or someone to show me the way. I know You have reasons in testing me, but show me at least a glimpse of those reasons, so that I know I’m doing the right thing. If my life is destined to be this hard, give me a chance to share it to people who is willing to listen, so that someday, they will learn to appreciate what you have given them. Help me Allah, You are the place for me to rely on when no one seems to understand this heart”

He finished the final exam, and went back home to accompany his mom for her first treatment. A few weeks after that, he got a call from his lecturer “Congratulation, you got 4.00 flat for this semester”. He broke into tears, His pray has been answered. Ever since best friends constantly support him, help and listen to him.
He takes away good things from you, but someday He will be giving back a better one. Sometimes we took lots of things for granted, that we tend to forget someone who close to us. But believe me, once we started to realize we will lose them, then we know why God sent them to us.

Considered paid with a glass of milk

Considered paid with a glass of milk

One day, a poor boy who was selling goods from door to door to pay his way through school, found he had only one thin dime left, and he was hungry.

He decided he would ask for a meal at the next house. However, he lost his nerve when a lovely young woman opened the door. Instead of a meal he asked for a drink of water. She thought he looked hungry so brought him a large glass of milk. He drank it slowly, and then asked, “How much do I owe you?” “You don’t owe me anything,” she replied. “Mother has taught us never to accept pay for a kindness.” He said….. “Then I thank you from my heart.”

As Howard Kelly left that house, he not only felt stronger physically, but his faith in God and man was strong also. He had been ready to give up and quit.

Year’s later that young woman became critically ill. The local doctors were baffled. They finally sent her to the big city, where they called in specialists to study her rare disease. Dr. Howard Kelly ! was called in for the consultation. When he heard the name of the town she came from, a strange light filled his eyes. Immediately he rose and went down the hall of the hospital to room. Dressed in his doctor’s gown he went in to see her. He recognized her at once. He went back to the consultation room determined to do his best to save her life. From that day he gave special attention to the case. After a long struggle, the battle was won.

Dr. Kelly requested the business office to pass the final bill to him for approval. He looked at it, then wrote something on the edge and the bill was sent to her room. She feared to open it, for she was sure it would take the rest of her life to pay for it all. Finally she looked, and something caught her attention on the side of the bill. She read these words….. “Paid in full with one glass of milk”

Signed Dr. Howard Kelly. Tears of joy flooded her eyes as her happy heart prayed: “Thank You God. Your love has spread abroad through human hearts and hands.”
This is why I would like to be a doctor… We all are given second chances; I would like to give people second chances

True Friendship

We are friends, before, now and forever

Some of us only dream to have a true friendship

Some, don’t even know what it is

But for me, I know how to describe it properly; in simple English words

Let me tell you; what it is, and how it is.

We don’t search for similarities; we’d rather complete the differences we have

We don’t ask for money; we just need support from behind

We don’t clarify our needs; because we know what we need

There is no meaning of being abusive; everything is done perfectly sincere

We never hesitated to help each other; we knew, true friends are always there for each other

We don’t have uncertainty between us; we just have trust that built from belief and faith

We might have different opinions about life; we still conclude it at a same way at the end

We don’t ask why we are being friends at the first place; we already knew for sure God destined this friendship between us

We know each other weaknesses and bad behaviours; we never used them for back stabbing each other at behind

We don’t justify each other from our pasts; we accept each other for the way we are today

We don’t have jealousy; every achievement one of us got, is achievement for both of us

We don’t specify our friendship in words; cause its way too valuable than any refined literature ever made by mankind

Friendship is more than just a relationship; it is a bond. A bond that attached us together, forever. This friendship is going to last, as every single moment we have, we share, will last forever. Thank you so much my friend, the friendship you gave me, is like a new life breathes into my soul, give me hope, and give me strength; for me to embrace a new frontier in life. If the whole world turns against you, I won’t do the same cause you are my friend. You always are and you always be.

That’s why I would like to be a doctor

Life is nothing more than just a brittle, fragile glass that is waiting to break apart once we lost our control on it. Ambition is everyone mission in life. Something that we would like to become in the future. I got reasons why I’m eagerly wanted to pursue my childhood dream of becoming a doctor. I have lost so many things in life; something that I’d rather die to get them back to me. But yeah, sometimes we just have to accept the way life is meant to be. It doesn’t mean to give up on hope, but to accept reality and to give space for a whole new frontier in life. Since childhood, I hate to see people crying, being hurt or seeing people lose someone they love. I just can’t stand myself seeing people to be sad. Ironically, me myself is wrapped around the blanket of sadness in my whole life. I’ve lost my strength to move on since childhood; I’ve lost my sense of security long before I ever understand what life is, and I even lost my faith to believe what is best in me. No one knows how much it hurts me from the start, and how deep the scar as it wont heal. I create my own world, I choose my own path, I try to nurture my own feeling of happiness. I don’t want people to face what I’ve faced before, I just want to see smiles rather than tears. Life is not easy, but we can make it thru if we believe in who we are and work together, supporting each other, to bring our lives forward. Doctor gives a second chance. I do believe in a second chance. That’s why I would like to become a doctor; to give people any possible second chance. I know, I’ve been given a second chance by someone who believes in me, give me hope to continue to walk again, and never gave in. Thank you so much for those who believe in me.

I would like to give people a second chance

One chapter ends, another chapter begins

There’s another word for life; Journey. Every single one of us born with a purpose to be fulfilled, none of us are destined to have a straight and easy path to get to the end cause everyone got detours and obstacles along the way. We choose to be who we are today, we are the one who creates the person that we call as “I”. Life isn’t that easy, to tell the truth; life is hard no matter how you put it. There’s a time when we feel, we are getting too much, and we feel everything is going out of control, out of our reach, and the only thing that we would like to do are sit and cry, with hope that everything is going to be just fine the next day.  But the reality is cruel, nothing will change until you put your hands on it, make things to be better, instead of running away from it. We face different kind of things in life, some of us born with the silver spoon but never understand what is hardship, some are born with extraordinary talent but lack of money to bring the thing up, some are born with bright brain but having a turmoil in their families. We are just can’t get rid of problems cause that is life, the way it is meant to be. This is about a journey, a journey to learn who we are, what we are, why we are here, what is our purpose to live. We can’t just let things go with the flow, cause we are the flow, we are the direction that our lives need to be in. We have to direct ourselves, show us the way, tell what path that we are meant to walk in. We can’t give up on life, life is too precious to be wasted; it is more than anything else. Today you feel devastated and hurt, but believe me, sooner or later, the light will lit up your life and show you the right way. Don’t ever lose hope, nothing in this world happens without a reason; we just have to widely open our eyes to see the difference that it brings at the end of the day. We all are given a second chance, so prove to yourself and everybody else, hardships wont let you down. Remember this, one chapter ends, another chapter begins. Embrace the previous chapter, and appreciate the coming chapter; a whole new beginning of your life.

Life is full of meanings, we just have to open our eyes to see the wisdom