It has been a while since the last time I really put my effort in writing an article in my blog. Actually, times are just too packed since I’ve entered the Medical School.
I love to write – that is for sure. Since I really don’t know how to express my feeling through conversation, so words are the best way for me to put everything in.
I’ve been enjoying every second in every day of life being a full-time medical student. Since childhood I’ve been looking for my purpose of being a human being – more or less. After so long I’ve been discovering my place in this world, only now I’ve found it among doctors. It’s not that easy to search reasons for being alive; cause I’m certain with the fact that most people I’ve met, they don’t even know who they are.
So, after half a year being a medical student (not a long time perhaps), only now I know, how much things I have to handle starting from now on. It is so elevating being a medical student; I’ve learnt from friends I’ve met, Doctors who inspired me, knowledges that captivate me yeah pretty much all of them
But, sometimes there’s thing come out off my mind thinking that these humble hands will be the hands that will be saving lives (under Allah will).
What if my patient dies because of me?
What if I didn’t give my best in saving lives?
What if I miss my chance to save lives?
What if I break hearts of their love ones?
What if I fail in giving people new hopes like I promised to?
What if everything turns out ugly; I couldn’t even forgive myself
We learn from mistakes, and we take blame on that and try to change for the better
But this is about life
It’s not about being failed in the exam
Nor doing bad to friends
It is about LIFE.. more than anything else
I just don’t know how much things will drop upon me
The only thing I could hope for is that my shoulder is strong enough to bear burdens that I will be facing during my entire career of being a Doctor one day
May guidance from Him leads my way