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Archive for February, 2011

My love =)


Tomorrow, she will turn 49. It has been along time then. For me, she is my everything; my life, my love and my inspiration.
She was born on February 17th, 1969 at her home in Kuala Pilah.

She was born with cleft lips (sumbing in Malay), and she doesn’t have soft palate in her mouth. She has found its hard to chew on something since she doesn’t have soft palate (lelangit in Malay). She might born that way, but she is beautiful, perhaps the prettiest woman on this planet-at least for me.

She is a quick learner, very quick perhaps. She loves English, and to tell the truth I was ahead from children of my age in English because of her teaching. Most of the times, we converse in english.

She has been my inspiration eversince I was a kid; for something good, really good. She taught me not to give up with hope. I have a beautiful story about her that I feel like sharing it to you people. It was dated long ago, during her form 5. At that time, she was doing so good in class, she worked so hard with hope that one day she can enter university-change her fate ultimately. She came from a very poor family, having only salted fish as her daily foods. She even couldn’t afford to have her own pencil. She used what then? She used charcoal as her pencil.

With all the hardness and barriers she had been through, luck wasn’t there yet. She has failed her SPM because she failed her Malay languange paper. That is the hard part of taking SPM, you fail Malay, other papers are seemed useless. At that moment, everyone turned their back to her, even her best friend and family. My late grandmother asked her to get married, but she strongly refused.

She didn’t let people taking control on her life, cause she was on control. She took a worn out paper (I still have that paper even until now) and she wrote something on it

Aku akan berjaya suatu hari nanti

She pasted that paper in her pencil box which was made from a talcum box. She worked extremely hard, she even studied until 3am everyday with humble lantern by her side. Good things come with prize isn’t it? When STPM result was out, she received the highest score of 4A in the school, and even in the whole state of Negeri Sembilan. Her name was carved nicely at her school, so that everyone can remember her.

She has been a very great friend, tutor, and of course a great mother. She has inspired me in many ways. Her smile is like a remedy to me. Owh, not to forget, my mother doesn’t know how to use a handphone. She only knows how to make a call. Plus, she memorizes every single phone numbers. Like hundreds I think. She really wants me to become a doctor, and Mom, I want you to know this, I wont let you down! I will never ever let you down! Promise.

Happy birthday mom. You are the place where my life begins and it will be where it ends. You always have me right by your side.
Love you =)


When everything turns bad


Have you ever felt disappointed with yourself?
Have you ever screamed deep down to your throat but no one seems to care?
Have you ever felt devastated when everything that you’ve worked for ends up worthless?
Have you ever asked yourself “Who am I?”
Perhaps that is the one billion dollar question that you should have been asking yourself then. The thing is, you are not here for nothing – that’s for sure, so why we are here? We can’t tell the exact answer to that question since it is too subjective.
But for me, I shall simply put it in a single simple sentence “I just want to feel I exist for someone”. Maybe, that’s my greatest dream in life – I will fight myself through it. I have read this wonderful quote “Today I’m nobody, but I’m certain that one day I will be somebody”. It would relieve myself everytime those words pass through my head.
I have something in mind that I would like to share with you people – no matter how hard things drop upon you, you just have to remember the fact you would have not been tested by God if He knows you couldn’t get through it. Every single thing that we ever dream for is within our reach, but most of the times we close our eyes to see the exact route and eventually we fall upon the very thing that we are looking for, without even looking for it.
Every deeds will surely pay off =)

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