“Do you still mad at me?”
“Why should I mad at you mom? You never upset me, I went through lots of things, and I made it through at the end, it wont be happening without your constant support”.
“Do you mad at me stopping you from continuing your study in Japan?”
“Mom, it has already been a year since that, I never think about it, you are my Mom, you have the right to choose for me. I know you need me. Even though going to Japan was everything to me back then, when I sit back and think, everything comes with reason isn’t it? I wont be mad just because of this mom. I’m better than that”
“I’m proud to have you as my son. I just want to be with you, see you growing up, see you achieving your dreams, see you becoming a good man. I don’t want to lose you”
“You are not losing me mom, never at any moment you are going to lose me, cause I always be here for you. You are my everything, don’t you know that? Don’t think about this anymore k mom”
The boy did everything that he could in studying. He went through his third semester in diploma with lots of passion in it, because he knows; he wanted to be a doctor, just like what his mom dreams of. The night before final, he dropped his mom a call “Mom, tomorrow will be my first day of examination, I’m quite nervous. Tomorrow will be English paper”
“You don’t have to be nervous, I know my son very well, he worked hard. I miss you son”
“Mom, are you crying? I can hear you are crying? Mom tell me, what happened? Please mom, tell me”
“Its nothing, I just miss you. Do your best for tomorrow, focus on your study, that’s the only way you can change your life”
“I will mom, I will keep reminding myself that”
It was quite weird that night, the sky was raining heavily, like it was trying to tell him something would happen. The next morning, right after he performed his prayer, he got a call, from his sister “mom got a __________, she has been diagnosed since last week, get ready to go back home if anything happens” he didn’t reply anything, he didn’t talk, only tears went down the cheek and he immediately disconnected the call. “She has been keeping this for a week?” whispered him. He immediately called his best friends, and told them what happened. It was just an hour before the final started. His best friends persuaded him to take the paper and stop worrying about it for a while. He went to sit for the exam even though tears were shedding nonstop along the way. Since that day, each night he prays to God
“If it’s true, you created me, to face these challenges in life.. If it is true, You will never test Your servant if You know he couldn’t make it through, I’m begging for Your help, show me the way, make it easy for me to see the route You have destined for me to walk in. Light my way Allah, I am too hurt now, I’m hurt not because the tests You have given me, but I am too hurt knowing I’m going to face these tests alone. Show me Your mercy and love, show me that You are with me to show me the way, send me somebody for me to talk with, someone to listen to me or someone to show me the way. I know You have reasons in testing me, but show me at least a glimpse of those reasons, so that I know I’m doing the right thing. If my life is destined to be this hard, give me a chance to share it to people who is willing to listen, so that someday, they will learn to appreciate what you have given them. Help me Allah, You are the place for me to rely on when no one seems to understand this heart”
He finished the final exam, and went back home to accompany his mom for her first treatment. A few weeks after that, he got a call from his lecturer “Congratulation, you got 4.00 flat for this semester”. He broke into tears, His pray has been answered. Ever since best friends constantly support him, help and listen to him.
He takes away good things from you, but someday He will be giving back a better one. Sometimes we took lots of things for granted, that we tend to forget someone who close to us. But believe me, once we started to realize we will lose them, then we know why God sent them to us.